Unconditional Love

Love....such an illusive word. What is love? Is it just
a creation of man or is it the way we're meant to be?
I don't know what love is, but seeing many people's life
and how they have gone about it, I think I have a general
idea on how to be happy in my love life. There is no such
thing as constant happiness, there is no smooth sailing
forever, there is pain and there is gain.

In my case I had a bad first experience with love, things
didn't turnout perfect no manner how much I wanted it to.
This was because me and my ex were not in the same wavelength,
for you to be with someone in a long term relationship,
you must know what they want and they must know what you
want and both must be willing or able to give them the
things they desire. Love is just happiness you get from
mutual convenience at the beginning, without this feeling
there is no attraction and there is no infatuation.

Some people find having someone pretty is convenient for
them because they like to think they are able to get someone
like that, for others they one someone who can help them
with their deepest problems, some want someone their family
see fit and so many more. There is only one thing in common
to all of these, magnitude of the benefit you get out of
the other person, different people place more importance
in different things.

Now, how does infatuation/attraction turn into true love?
True love is basically you love the person so much, you
appreciate all the thing they have done for you and you
want to reciprocate by doing the best things for them. I
actually never believed anyone can be so appreciative of
a person till I met my gf. Although she might not realize
it, she changed the tide of my life, she made be lose my
worst habits and give me some good habits to follow. You
may say anyone could have done this, well not for me. I
am stubborn, i want to do what i want to do, I want to
have fun without worrying what people think of me.

My gf made me realize how self destructive that is. She
was the only one able to put some sense into my head. I
honestly have to say, at first what I saw in her was how
pretty she was and how nice it was to talk to her. The
rest only came later, i wanted to make her very happy for
being with me as I thought she deserves someone with
better looks then me. I told myself I have to make myself
worth her time. Later I realized everyone has their bad
sides and they can really get to you, but by this time I
willing to do anything for her for what she has done for
me.

I think this is what they call unconditional love, just
like the love I have for my mom. She made me who I am and
without her and my dad I won't be here. So, logically as
long as I want to live they have my love, actually even
if I hated my life now, I'd still love them because mom
especially gave everything she had for me. There is no
one who can tell me, it's not worth for my to help my mom
when she's in trouble or when she's in difficulties. No
matter what she does, the love for her will be there.

It's the same love I have for my gf, as what I am now is
what I am after I met her and I’m so happy i chose this
path. So, no matter what my gf does I'll love her, even
if this leads to her leaving me. I won't know what to do
if I had to pick sides between my mom and my gf. There is
also another similarity i see with the two of them, both
of them have no way of replacing me. I am just as important
to them as they are important to me, and that makes me
happy. There are 3 people who i deem fit for my love, my
mom, my gf and myself. These are the three unconditional
loves in my life.

I'd do anything for any of my unconditional loves except
for stop loving them or killing myself. Well that's it for
this time, just have a few final words.

I love you MOM! thank you for everything you've done for me

I love you Kanami, my honey ^_^. For being there for me
despite all my faults.

Alright, see ya'll till next time, peace out ^_^