I hate writing but it’s not the concept of expressing myself with words but just the fact it’s a lot more effort writing than showing or talking. Have you guys thought of telling someone everything you felt throughout in your life? For people who have written journals or diaries this would be easy, they can just past the dairy to the person they wanted to tell the story to. I’ve never written any diaries because the story of my life. I’m pretty secretive and very choosy of the people I tell things to. What I tell people is just the how much they need to know, not lies though. Well there have been lies, but not to the important people in my life.
Back to the topic, who are the people you would tell the story of your life to? I was watched this movie recently “Definitely Maybe” and seeing the guy open up his past to his daughter made me think if I can ever do that. May be I have done so many stupid things in the past that I just want to bury it and just forget about it. The thing I did in the past doesn’t reflect the things I do now because I changed. Everyone you meet in the way changes you, not that I did a lot of terrible things. May be a little lie there and a little lie here making myself look bigger and better then I am (I don’t do that regularly, just when I feel threatened).
Anyway, who can this person be? Because I know at one point of my life I will have to do this, I have this thing that I want to show someone the mistakes I did and the right things I did so that they would learn from it or they would tell me how I can improve myself. An opinion of another person is always good because they can see things you don’t. This person though can’t be some stranger to me because I can’t open up to someone who I don’t fully trust yet and not everyone I fully trust I can tell these things to.
I guess I will find this out when the time comes. This was really some kind of useless reading to you guys I think lol. Just something I was thinking to myself, sorry to make you read so much with nothing much to gain >.<>
This time round I have quite a few games I'm looking forward to, nowadays not many games attract me so I hope they can maintain their good performance as far as I'm concern. THe titles i'm looking forward to are Final Fantasy 13 (play station 3), Diablo 3 (PC) and Fallout 3.
I'll start with final fantasy 13, there are no PS gamer who like RPG can say no to a Final Fantasy franchise. To me final fantasy 12 was kind of a mess up by square enix, as far as I'm concern that games sucked massively. Final fantasy 13 though has brought back the good looking main characters, which I've kinda missed lol, the graphics are awesome, the only set back for me is the change of the turn based system. I loved the old final fantasy game play which is more to planing rather then reactions, may be i just suck at fast game play lol. (i'm pretty decent with cs though, funny >.<)
The next would be Diablo 3, Diablo is a game that really gets me sucked into it. I played Diablo 1 over and over and over again with all the character, I simply loved it. I think i have a thing for medieval weapons and armour, games with swords and bows and staff are my thing haha. Blizzard is also famous for it's storyline and it wonderful CG, the short clips after ever Act/Part is unbelievably good. Diablo 1 and 2 is definitely in my favorite game list and I was so exited to know Diablo 3 is also in it's way :D
Fallout 2 was only one of the games that got me sucked it for sometime, although the games wasn't as smooth as i'd have liked it to be, it was still massive fun. I like their turn base system. Turn based games are my games :) I hope Fallout 3 will improve their functionality story while maintaining the fun turn based system.
Now for the sad part....I need to find the money to both upgrade the pc and also get a ps3 T.T
What would have happened to my family if our sole bread winner was lost, I know i'm not so close to my dad as many others would be, but i still love him. In the end he is my dad no matter what he did, I don't want to lose him ever. It made me so angry though, this was is third time in two months to have and an accident in the middle of the night.
What the hell is wrong with him? This time it was so close to him being injured badly. Is it a must to go out and get drunk at night? Is it so important that it means it's a chance of losing his life? My dad and many other people need to learn that driving under influence of alcohol is the main catalyst to road accident deaths next to sleepiness.
He tells me "I fell asleep". Yeah you nutmeg, it's 3am in the morning and you're drunk...how else will you be? Is it really necessary to drink so much when you know your house isn't even close to near the place? Come on people, think of your loved once. Me and my mom are never gonna have a nights peace from now on if my dad is not home yet.
Never mind that, we don't want to lose the head of our family. We love you a lot dad although you make me angry all the time and make me think you're one of the dumbest person of all time in certain areas. We don't want to lose you like this, please be considerate and please love yourself too. This is definitely not the way to go. This also goes to all the other people out there who think enjoying life is more important then life. Then again, drinking alcohol is not exactly enjoying life. Care for yourself, care for your family, care for others in the road as well.
Why does it feel like times is moving so much faster? It's not only me, everyone feels it. May be it's because life now is hectic and also we have so many things to do that we don't realize how much time we spend on these things. It's a scary thought though, life is just passing by so fast and you only have one life to live.
All we can do is hope to go we're making this little time we're given to do things that are important for us because if you're doing something wrong, before you know it you're in deep shit >.< Good times move fast too, but the best thing with this is we tend to see the results of our work faster then we did before.
May be it's not faster then before, may be before we were just looking at the calender more. Now days you just decide to look on the calender when you have to fill in a form with the date or when you write a letter. Most of the time i don't know what day and date i'm in, i even get confused with the years...LOL but i guess that's just me. >.<
We have to make good decisions and reap the best of the short time we have, it feel even shorter then it was before >.< scary. Lets do the best for ourselves and bliss through the time we're give to live this life. Most importantly, don't let other suffer in the little time they have also. We rarely get a second chance these days. Time flies....peace out