What happens when you see something and believe it's the real thing
but it's not really how it actually is? Since that is the only thing you
can see, you wouldn't know what was better because that's as good
as it gets for you. Lets say you had an eyesight that was different from
everyone else, lets say yours is more dull then everyone else's. Would
you think the world is not beautiful or would you say it's beautiful
because you're never seen anything better? as in "this is as good as it
gets" and 1+1 can never become 10. I don't know how this thought
was triggered in my biological processor but it's really making me
think. What if what I see and the best I can get isn't really the best
thing. I won't notice that i'm having something less because i'm not
capable of experiencing better things. When i look at it this way, i
think the person with the dull eyes won't really think the world is not
beautiful unless that person is really creative and can really think out
of the box. It may just be fantasy though, but imagine someone like
that manages to bring that world they think is more beautiful. Now
the questions arises if aesthetics are comparisons or static facts? I
don't know

All i know is if the person thinks it's not beautiful with a dull eyesight,
it's actually really good and it means that person has a really good
imagination. People who can see things they can't see are geniuses ,
can you imagine a material form which is not gas, not liquid and not
solid. Can you come up with an idea of a material which was not any
of those? Only a person who can do that will think the world is not
beautiful with a dull eyesight because they can think of things that
doesn't exist in their world. I can conclude with this that, what your
think is nice is nice and what you think is not nice is not nice.
Everything we think is just a state of our mind. As simple as that.
When the brain thinks that, then there is no stopping them, as far
as they are concerned, what they think they know is what they know
and they are not losing out on anything because they don't know
what's better.

It's really strange to think about it, may be what you think is good
isn't really the best. If we keep trying to get better then what we can
get, we might just become crazy and weird. So it's not entirely
healthy to do so. The end of this is.... just be happy with who you
are, because if you're happy and you are that the best state you can
be in then you have no worries. You're happy and that's the bottom
line....because elniniyo said so :P

I hate writing but it’s not the concept of expressing myself with words but just the fact it’s a lot more effort writing than showing or talking. Have you guys thought of telling someone everything you felt throughout in your life? For people who have written journals or diaries this would be easy, they can just past the dairy to the person they wanted to tell the story to. I’ve never written any diaries because the story of my life. I’m pretty secretive and very choosy of the people I tell things to. What I tell people is just the how much they need to know, not lies though. Well there have been lies, but not to the important people in my life.

Back to the topic, who are the people you would tell the story of your life to? I was watched this movie recently “Definitely Maybe” and seeing the guy open up his past to his daughter made me think if I can ever do that. May be I have done so many stupid things in the past that I just want to bury it and just forget about it. The thing I did in the past doesn’t reflect the things I do now because I changed. Everyone you meet in the way changes you, not that I did a lot of terrible things. May be a little lie there and a little lie here making myself look bigger and better then I am (I don’t do that regularly, just when I feel threatened).

Anyway, who can this person be? Because I know at one point of my life I will have to do this, I have this thing that I want to show someone the mistakes I did and the right things I did so that they would learn from it or they would tell me how I can improve myself. An opinion of another person is always good because they can see things you don’t. This person though can’t be some stranger to me because I can’t open up to someone who I don’t fully trust yet and not everyone I fully trust I can tell these things to.

I guess I will find this out when the time comes. This was really some kind of useless reading to you guys I think lol. Just something I was thinking to myself, sorry to make you read so much with nothing much to gain >.<>

Every year a few games like movies will have a few big titles to look forward to. Games would gear up their PCs or get new consoles as preparations to welcome these big titles. The most common once are the sequels, as the new name games will still be unknown.

This time round I have quite a few games I'm looking forward to, nowadays not many games attract me so I hope they can maintain their good performance as far as I'm concern. THe titles i'm looking forward to are Final Fantasy 13 (play station 3), Diablo 3 (PC) and Fallout 3.

I'll start with final fantasy 13, there are no PS gamer who like RPG can say no to a Final Fantasy franchise. To me final fantasy 12 was kind of a mess up by square enix, as far as I'm concern that games sucked massively. Final fantasy 13 though has brought back the good looking main characters, which I've kinda missed lol, the graphics are awesome, the only set back for me is the change of the turn based system. I loved the old final fantasy game play which is more to planing rather then reactions, may be i just suck at fast game play lol. (i'm pretty decent with cs though, funny >.<)

The next would be Diablo 3, Diablo is a game that really gets me sucked into it. I played Diablo 1 over and over and over again with all the character, I simply loved it. I think i have a thing for medieval weapons and armour, games with swords and bows and staff are my thing haha. Blizzard is also famous for it's storyline and it wonderful CG, the short clips after ever Act/Part is unbelievably good. Diablo 1 and 2 is definitely in my favorite game list and I was so exited to know Diablo 3 is also in it's way :D

Fallout 2 was only one of the games that got me sucked it for sometime, although the games wasn't as smooth as i'd have liked it to be, it was still massive fun. I like their turn base system. Turn based games are my games :) I hope Fallout 3 will improve their functionality story while maintaining the fun turn based system.

Now for the sad part....I need to find the money to both upgrade the pc and also get a ps3 T.T

It was 4am in the morning, there was a knock on my room door. I open it and see my cousin there with my dad and my cousin says "Your dad just got into a massive accident, the car is gone". My first instinct was to look at my dad, he was standing straight and he was stable "Thank God, i said to myself". My heart was beating but the fact that he was standing there took a whole lot of weight out of me.

What would have happened to my family if our sole bread winner was lost, I know i'm not so close to my dad as many others would be, but i still love him. In the end he is my dad no matter what he did, I don't want to lose him ever. It made me so angry though, this was is third time in two months to have and an accident in the middle of the night.

What the hell is wrong with him? This time it was so close to him being injured badly. Is it a must to go out and get drunk at night? Is it so important that it means it's a chance of losing his life? My dad and many other people need to learn that driving under influence of alcohol is the main catalyst to road accident deaths next to sleepiness.

He tells me "I fell asleep". Yeah you nutmeg, it's 3am in the morning and you're drunk...how else will you be? Is it really necessary to drink so much when you know your house isn't even close to near the place? Come on people, think of your loved once. Me and my mom are never gonna have a nights peace from now on if my dad is not home yet.

Never mind that, we don't want to lose the head of our family. We love you a lot dad although you make me angry all the time and make me think you're one of the dumbest person of all time in certain areas. We don't want to lose you like this, please be considerate and please love yourself too. This is definitely not the way to go. This also goes to all the other people out there who think enjoying life is more important then life. Then again, drinking alcohol is not exactly enjoying life. Care for yourself, care for your family, care for others in the road as well.

Is it me or is time moving faster? It's feels like i just went out on a new years count down with my friends and it's already October. When did i become so old....omg i'm already 25.....What the....... No gimme my teenage life back...lol

Why does it feel like times is moving so much faster? It's not only me, everyone feels it. May be it's because life now is hectic and also we have so many things to do that we don't realize how much time we spend on these things. It's a scary thought though, life is just passing by so fast and you only have one life to live.

All we can do is hope to go we're making this little time we're given to do things that are important for us because if you're doing something wrong, before you know it you're in deep shit >.< Good times move fast too, but the best thing with this is we tend to see the results of our work faster then we did before.

May be it's not faster then before, may be before we were just looking at the calender more. Now days you just decide to look on the calender when you have to fill in a form with the date or when you write a letter. Most of the time i don't know what day and date i'm in, i even get confused with the years...LOL but i guess that's just me. >.<

We have to make good decisions and reap the best of the short time we have, it feel even shorter then it was before >.< scary. Lets do the best for ourselves and bliss through the time we're give to live this life. Most importantly, don't let other suffer in the little time they have also. We rarely get a second chance these days. Time flies....peace out

What we see, what we hear and what we feel is what we think is real. What we don't realize is, how much of a lie we're living in. The human race has be toyed with by various people in the race itself to make the general population think, what they say is right. If one religion is almighty and true, why are there so many fanatics from so many religions. One of them may be right, which means the rest of them are just being toyed with. Or non of them may be even close to real. This is the situation we're living in now, blurred by the truth and also the lie.

What we see has be totally dominated my television these days. The tv has the right to brag, that it's the teacher to all. Even those without the tv is being manipulated by people who watch tv. Every argument or debate that takes place has it's own measure of lie. Politicians twist and turn their words to make them seem a lot more real then what it really is. People in the entertainment business portray false believes and make them look so good that people are tempted to do what they ask them to do and the people do it. Then again this might all not even be a lie. >.< sigh

Propaganda dominates our ears, rumors rule our actions. Neither the eye nor the ear can be trusted anymore. Then again, this has been so ever since humans were civilized, look where it has brought us. We're more modern then we ever were, everything is done so easily. We barely do 10% of the things the ancient humans did. So is manipulation good or bad?

Is making people thinking the direction you do manipulation? People may argue that you should just give them the facts and make them think for themselves. This process is a hard one these days where so many people lack simple common sense. Since this is the case people have to convince others and put what they think in a motivating manner that it's almost looks like it's manipulation to make others believe and bring them into view. No, it doesn't look almost like manipulation. It is MANIPULATION.

Even the people who have good things to portray to make life batter have to use manipulation these days. I think manipulation isn't evil anymore, it's a need. People's minds are too complex for others to see exactly what they see, so they have to explain and put it in the right order and the right tone to hit the heart of the listener. Many may argue this is not manipulation but it does sound like one to me.

Don't be worried by this, manipulation has been with us since men knew how to lead. The manipulator is the successful man, as people say some salesmen can sell ice to the Eskimo. The day you're able to do that, that's the day you're successful but that doesn't mean you're good :)

Pick the road you want to thread carefully because in this world, right and wrong is judged by a very very minuscule line. Peace out

"Form is temporary, Class in permanent", That's the shout the commentator gave when El Nino fired Liverpool's second goal in yesterday's merseyside derby. It has been quite a wait for Torres to return to form after his brilliance of last season that saw him become the best scoring debutant ever in the English Premier League.

Liverpool outclassed Everton right form he start till the end of the game. in the first half, Liverpool controlled the midfield with sheer class, Everton had no answers to the questions that Liverpool were asking them in the midfield but like most of this season's games, Liverpool lacked the sting from the attack which saw them struggling to get wins from the most unlikely teams (Stoke city, Standard Liage).

Torres was so frustrated with the aggressive play by Everton's back four, Keane was out of place yet again, Reira's crossings were out of mark. Gerrard and Kuyt were doing a fantastic job like they always do, yet no clear chances were created either end of the field except for that one chance Everton had which Tim Cahill was not able to find his feet to convert from close distance.

The second half started with so substitutions from either side and Liverpool again were in the driving seat. Torres's frustrations continued in the early stages of the second half were he got himself booked when he protested a foul he committed. Soon after that Alonso slots a perfect through pass to send Robbie Keane to the touchline, Keane took a slight look to his left and sent a sublime lob right across the goal to find Torres and when you see Torres approaching the the ball you already know where the ball is gonna end. Torres eased a volley in between Tim Howord's leg and it was one up to the red half of the merseyside.

After the first goal every move that Liverpool made was out of the world, beaming with confidence the red army marched into the Everton half and before you know it Keane slide a ball to Kuyt into the center of the penalty area that draws a superb tackle from Jagielca only to see the ball roll to Torres. Torres strikes a super shot into roof of Everton's net and the crowd erupts.

It was all one way now, and just within minutes Kuyt sweep the ball into the net after a Reira cross only to see it ruled out because the ball had already crossed the outside line before Reira pulled it back. A corner of awarded instead. The corner was taken short and Aurelio sent it sweet cross straight into Torres's feet and with another pin point finish Torres slotted the ball back into the far side of the goal. The hattrick though was not to be, because ref Mike Riley deemed it was a foul by Kuyt for a non existent push.

The game went on to end at 2-0 in favor of Liverpool. Watching this game made my eyes shine because finally the Liverpool strikers are back!!! Now lets see who can stop the red army. Next week will be taking Liverpool to the new billionaires, the blue half of Manchester, Manchester city let by Premier League's 32milion pounds record signing Robinho.

It's won't be an easy task to curb the speedy skillful shorties in Manchester City but i'm confident that Liverpool will come through again. Long Live Liverpool, you'll never walk alone!!.

Boredom is a feeling when you're not interested in anything that is around you or the lack of activity surrounding them. So now, how do you get rid of boredom? You find an activity that would keep you interested in, in other words "hobbies". There is a dangerous thing about hobbies though. People tend to take hobbies too far and forget the things that were important before they got bored.

It is essential that the hobby that you choose has some element of usefulness because, even if the hobby gets out of hand and become a lifestyle it will bear fruit and you can live on it. Did all those people that changed the lifestyle of men have hobbies?

Lets think of Einstien, what was his hobby? The only record of a hobby he had was when he was still a boy, he played the violin. Now playing the violin is a good hobby because if it had become his lifestyle, it could still be his bread and butter being a musician. To me I think Einstien's biggest hobby was to prove his theories, his biggest hobby was thinking. This hobby he had let him to great discoveries such as "special theory of relativity", "principle of relativity", "relativistic cosmology", "capillary action", "critical opalescence" and many more that changed the live we live today.

In other words, i think the best hobby you can have is a hobby you can spend your whole life doing. This may start with boredom or it may start with passion, but either way i think this is an essential part of life that we have to find out by ourselves. Although not many of us get the chance of doing what we like, we should try to get there at least.

I've had passion for a few things, i have a passion to make things tick together (more mechanical), I have the fascination towards things that fly (planes and choppers), i have the passion in football and i have the fascination on how to make good stories. Among all these passions and fascination there are a few i didn't get a chance to pursue but I'm not sad because I'm still in a field i can make things tick together (Information Technology namely programming) and i still play my favorite sport (Football)

The only worry I have is, are these passions strong enough to carry me all the way without getting bored and finding a new passion that would not bring me any good and ruin what I already have. I have gotten into one once and I'm glad I saw the light and escaped (MMORPGs).

Well i hope all of you would find things that you have passion in life and live through it without wasting the precious life we have on insignificant things. Hobbies should remain as hobbies for while you're bored and not let the main interest in your life be ruined. Ciao ^_^

Lately a young boy I know approached me and asked me, "How to tell a girl, I love her?" and i just asked him to go confess it to her because you never know unless you ask. It was just so easy for me to say it but I remember there was a time when I was scared too. I'm kinda curious though on why I was so scared.

Was I scared I'd be rejected? or was I just scared that the girl would go complain to her parents? (This was when I was still schooling) or was I scared my friends would laugh at me? Hmmmm.... strange thing this. Everyone knows if you don't ask you never know but guys just want to be sure that the girl likes him before asking. Why is this?

Lets see the first reason, "Scared of rejection". I'm quite sure this is one of the reasons, a guys ego is pretty important to him, being told "eww..you want to date me?" would be totally disastrous to him. This may be a reason but i'm sure a guy can take it after some time for soul healing lol. I'll mark this as one of the reasons.

The second one was, "Scared of elders". When you're in school, your friends parents were like the grown lions (even if he/she was tiny lol). Imagine if the mom of the girl comes to you and say, "Keep your filthy face away from my daughter, you should be concentrating in studies now not doing this kinda things". Man...that would be scary >.<, in some cases I think yeah this can be a reason too.

The third one, "Mockery by friends". "Hahaha you loser, that girl din even like you a bit man", dang that would hurt. When you're in school, what your friends thought about you was pretty darn important (peer presure), which may also be a reason why you'd want a gf. For the purposes of admiration (well that's then :p). Personally I din think this was much of a factor because a lot of them got this kinda mockery and still lived on their school lives full of pride. LOL

Personally i think the fear of rejection is the biggest factor in this when you're in school, non of those relationships were really truly heartfelt, more were just over exaggerated infatuation. I think a person has to be more matured to actually feel a full blown love. Not saying non of the school kids have that kinda maturity, it's just rare at that age unless they have a really logical mind beyond their age. Thus, the burn on the ego would be really hard felt.

As for older guys, I think there may be two things. One would definitely be fear of rejection and the other would be the lost of a good friend, someone you really admired. Admiration doesn't only go to the person you love but also to your closest friends at times. The lost of such a good friend will be a great lost, thus there is more then one thing to think about if the friend was a girl you want to date.

My advice is, just do what you think you want to do, if you think you're scared to tell, then wait till you think it's the right time. When you do this, sometimes you'll never get to tell it and the chance will be lost forever but this is how we learn things in life. We are like just any other animals, we learn from mistakes (may not even be a mistake). But at one point, you better make sure you learn and open up to the girl you love, weigh the benifits and lost and see if you can accept the lost before you make a move. That's what I think, it may be wrong but that's my way i do things (not always). Peace out... good luck in everything ^_^

Errrr... I am considered a nerd? What denotes a nerd?
Recently I went looking for the actual definition to the word "NERD" and it said, "An insignificant student who is rediculed as being affected or boringly studious" or "An intelligent but single minded expert in a particular technical field or profession".

I don't think i fall in neither of these categories. "An insignificant student", hmmm may be that can be counted in...not sure, but when they add "who is rediculed as being affected or boringly studios"... I'm quite sure I don't study much at all, saying that, how can i be boringly studious? The second definition is "An intelligent but single minded expert in a particular field", firstly I'm not that intelligent, and most definitely not single minded. I love all kinda things like sports and games and movies, so i'm happy to say I'm not a Nerd haha.

Now, I wanna know if the saying "Nerd" is a good thing or is it a bad thing. Some people say, nerds are the onces that make it big in life, that they are smart and talented. What do you call someone who is really good in more then one thing...lets say in studies and also in sports. I've have seen people like that being called a nerd. Is the definition of the word changing? Is nerd the same as geek? Some people say geek can be denoted to something good and nerd is more use to ridicule and others say vise versa.

People need to stop using words they don't know the meaning to lol. They confuse the people who don't know the word yet. Anyway the quest to knowing if nerd is good or not is still not over because there are too many different definitions from too many different people.

With that being said, would anyone be proud by calling them self a nerd? I guess it's all up to the person who's being called that. The "good" definition of the word might be even made by the nerds themselves to make it sound better then it is. All i know is i don't think i fall into the category after reading the definitions. SAFE!! lol....but then, who cares in the end >.<

I don't care what i'm called, i'm just gonna be rich and have cool cars and have a lovely pretty wife who's also cool like that. Don't worry about a thing guys, if they call you a nerd, a geek or whatever. Just work towards your goal and get it. Then, even the nerd/geek will be the coolest people in the whole wide world. ^_^ Peace out

Have you ever thought where did the different skin colours come from? If you read the bible, they say we come from Adam and Eve and if you follow the Darwin's theory, it says we come from primates. Either way, we started out as one...when did people turn white, black, brown, yellow, red and so on?

The most satisfiying theory is, there was only black people and while people on the planet at first and from that there were mixes of genes that give a possibility of 16 colour tones. If this was the case, were there two different sets of first people on the planet? Or was Adam black and Eve white or vise versa?

No matter how things go, we're all essentially one race. One way or rather we're all related. Races are just boundries that were made up, and it confines the people of the world from opening up to other cultures and arts. Wouldn't it be better if all the knowledge is shared? and no lie was told to make one race bigger then the other?

Racial pride is a pride that was derived by proud men to satisfy thier ego of greatness. Now days you can find at least one person from one race saying "my race is the greatest". I say "bull shit", there is no greatest race, there is no weakest race. The only difference is the way this different races grew over time. This is not entirely bad if people can open up and accept that all men are one, all the different ways to look at life combined in one compilation that would help the whole of mankind grow.

If racial pride is abolished, a lot of bloodshed can be avioded. These days, religion is taking over the racial pride. I don't want to comment more on this and pull hatred to myself. What i'm saying is all men should put aside thier difference and work togather. I myself am a mixed person, my mom is biologically Chinese and my dad is biologically Indian. I've gained so much from this union, the crossing of the two cultures in me and thought me loads.

I take the good from both sides and try to be a better person on the whole. I'm not saying i'm all good, but I'd like to say exposure from the two biggest races in the world has brought me a different prespective from all the people who go around with load of thier race pinned on thier back.

Love everyone, take the good, throw the bad and live in harmony. The world will be a better place if the colour and race is forgotten. Cheers ^_^

Late night I watched Liverpool only able to come off with a draw with Stoke City. Really a fusterating game to watch as a LIverpool fan. Liverpool controlled the whole game but Stoke City was playing defence with 10 man. Liverpool had good chances although it was such a tight defence, unfortunately they weren't able to find the back of the net. The one goal they scored was not allowed by the referee for no apparant reason, there was no offside, there was not foul play, there was no reason. Referees like that should be sacked immediately. The whole thing pissed me off massively and my mood was like down low. So, i decided to watch the next match which was Arsenal vs Bolton where if Arsenal wins they will go past Liverpool in the standings. Half way through the game Arsenal was 2-1 up and i got bored with it.

I switched the channel at that point to HBO and this movie "Music & Lyrics" was just starting. This movie was about two people coming togather while writing a song, one does the lyrics and one does the music. The song that they make is brilliant(well to me) and it has a personal effect on me. It totally changed my mood from fusterated and angry to in peace and love lol.

Now that I think back into all the things I've been through in life, I can also think of a songs from that period of time that accompanies the feelings. Music can be a marker to the event in our life, now when I play my playlist on Windows Media Player, every other song signifize a moment in time and it reminds me of what has come to pass.

Music has played a big role in my life and I'm quite sure it has to many of you guys also. It brings back memories that other wise you may totally forget as time past. Music is a marker to the moments in my life and I'm never ever going to lose the songs in my PC.

Now, who'd have thought i'd start a blog?

I honestly hated the idea of diaries because i'm pretty secretive, didn't really want to let people know what I was thinking about because half the time it's just crap. Lately, things have been changing with how i see things though. May be it's for the better, may be it's not, but i'm felling a lot more focused and i'm guessing it's for the better. Thanks to one special person in my life that i'd never ever forget.

Life truly is a whirlwind, sometimes you're floating in the sky thinking nothing can get better and the next moment you see yourself eating sand because you're forced to and you cannot go any lower. Thanks to my uncle's words lately, I found out things have to go down before they start pushing up. For instance, which are the two most industrious countries in the world? It's Japan and Germany, if either of this countries had won their respective wars, would they be how they are now? Failure or down time is just a catalyst to the catapult to spring you upwards. The sad thing about this is, the higher you go, the harder you fall. Thus i say, life is a whirlwind.

Never let failure break you, it's just another step to victory. Cherrs everyone enjoy the good times and learn from the bad times ^_^