In the eyes of some Malaysian "Malays", the Malaysian Indians and Chinese are "pendatang" (Immigrants). They insist that the country must only belong to the Malays, some even say we're like the Jews that migrated into Palestine to take their resources. I agree that many of our fore fathers who came to Malaya with the British (willingly/ forcefully) are migrants, but we are 3rd generation Malaysians who cannot claim India/China to be our motherland. If the fact that our race was not here to begin with is the reason why we're not fully accepted as citizens of this country with equal rights, than by right all of us are africans and none of us have rights to this land. Men migrated from the cradle of life (in Africa) millions of years ago to find food and a living. Regardless there are even many written facts that say we were already here before the British step foot into this country, bringing riches and trade from Indian and China and making Malaya a bustling and busy transit point between the east and west..

Indians and Chinese in this country are not fighting to take land or properties from the Malays, we only ask for equal opportunity to build this country together, to make it a prosperous region with less range of wealth between the poor and the rich. By limiting the talent and the intelligence this country produces just because of racial issues, everyone is losing out. The Malays say if their privileges are taken away, they will be the poor of this nation. My question is why? I think they have become very comfortable with what they get for free and thus many of them are taking things too easy (not all, I've seen some very hardworking and successful Malay people without government help also) , in turn it's slowing down the progress of this prosperous nation. Right now we're settling for a pie that's worth 1 Ringgit instead of one worth 1,000 Ringgit; even one percent of the potential wealth is more than the total wealth now.

In fact, if the special treatment was taken away the Malay community will also wake up and become a force to reckon with economically. They have the advantage of being the most populated group of people and have the major buying power. Why is our nation now resorting to making under par product (quality wise) and specific sanctions (example: the taxes on imported cars) so that we can compete with other developed nations? Why can't we make quality products that compete with developed nations? The method of the current government is an effective one, but it's not the best and not the only way. We have all the resources to be the next Japan/Korea/Hong Kong or even our neighboring country Singapore. I'm not even going to go into the corruption and cronyism allegations that are being thrown at the current government, I'll get to that later.

My suggestion to the government and the people: Let try out a new approach with the enormous talent pool we have in this country. Many major university in  the world holds outstanding Malaysian student who either stays on in the country he/she studies in or come back and works for a major non-malaysian multinational company. Why can't we make use of these bright stars by giving them equal opportunity to start-up a quality company in Malaysia. Many only-Bumiputra restrictions hinder them from progressing as a lot of opportunities are not available to them. Lucrative industries in the country are being put under strict bumiputra majority quota prerequisites and such.

If the current government is not going to take this chance to trust the abilities of Malaysians than we shall give the mandate to a government that is more willing to put their trust on the talents of it's citizens. I know a lot of Malay friends who feel there should be an equal opportunity for everyone and they are just gaining in number day by day. They too feel that this would give them a more competitive mindset and take their game to the next level. What's a democratic government who doesn't reflect the needs and wants of the majority of it's citizens? Cheer to all Malaysians and peace out ^_^

Hey people, I'm back after a two year hiatus. Lots have happened
since my last post, ups and downs and rounds and rounds. Finally
decided to start writing again on my blog. Honestly, I actually lost
access to my blog because I forgot my password and lost access
to my emails too lol (don't ask why).

Here a sneak update about what has happened, started work, left
the IT line, broke up,hooked up again, change of lifestyle, less games
more outings. Yeap, that's all that happened stuffed in a nutshell.
Have loads of different things to talk about now, lots of topics and
view from another perspective. Working life has been hectic, just like
any other grown adult. Mortgage and loans piling up, business ideas
popping up, what happened to the guy advocating IT you ask?
I guess I changed, IT is good and all  but now I feel there is more
out there than just what's in the electrical magic box.

Anyway, I'll come up with my next post real soon.
Keep a look out for it :) Cheers, peace out ^_^

Hi guys, I'm back :)

I'm almost done with my studies, FINALLY. Why did it take so long? That’s another reflection for another day i guess. I was never a dumb student or someone who didn’t understand what I was studying. I knew exactly what I was studying and I was just as skilled as any other peers of mine (except for the really outstanding ones). At the end of it all, although I wasn't all that bad, I had this disturbing feeling in me that I wasn’t good enough. I mean why else would i have taken so long to finish my degree?

Right now, I have only got 1 subject left which is no attendance requirement. I'll just have to finish coding my final year project and present it. Since I had so much time in hand, I went ahead and looked for a job. In all honesty, I didn't expect it to come anytime soon. I had kind of an inferiority complex, if you were in my shoes; I bet you'd feel it too. After 8 years of University and college life, I just couldn’t help feeling sorry for myself.

Never the less, I started looking for jobs in newspapers, online jobsites and some IT companies websites that I knew. My preference was to get myself a programming position in the Microsoft.Net platform, since it was a language I was more familiar with than any other. Although most of my student years were focused on Java Programming, my final year project was in C#.Net and for the first time, I knew everything I needed to implement a complete functioning software. I got in touch with high ranked, proven and experienced professionals who had more confidence in me than I myself did for their recommendations. After I collected a list of companies to contact, I started calling them to ask if their position were available. The first two I called had already filled their available positions. It was a little disappointing, but I knew that didn’t mean they rejected me. After that, I called the third, a Hospital and Clinic Management software company. I asked them the same thing I asked the previous companies and they said the position was available and asked me if I was free to come for an interview that very day.

I knew this was the chance for me to prove what I can really do. I agreed to go for the interview that very day. Right after I put down the phone, I sent my CV to the HR department of the company. Straight after that, I went into their website and mugged as much as I can about the company. I was so nervous to attend the job interview but I steadied my nerve and went for the interview. I got there like 30 minutes too early so I had to wait, these was one of the most extended period of time I’ve ever experienced. Every minute felt an hour. Finally I got the call to go into the interview room.

My first impression of the office was, “Wow, this place is so nice, it would be awesome to work here!!” I was led to this room which had 4 large window panes with the view if the high way outside, It was not a bad sight. Then came in this small framed man and introduced himself as Mr Lim. With a firm handshake I introduced myself and took a seat. This man had an aura of confidence about him that made me even more nervous but naturally I didn’t show it. He asked me a few things and I answered him, along with the reasons why I was so old and just finished my degree. He was satisfied with my explanation and told me he was going to give me a programming test. Inside me I was like (“oh shit please ask me something I know”) haha.

Thankfully I knew how to solve the problem he presented to me and I was so happy inside myself before he threw another bombshell on me. He asked me another question and this time I was quite lost. I knew the concept he was testing me in but I didn’t understand what he was asking exactly and I got so nervous I couldn’t properly think, but naturally I didn’t show it either lol. After that awkward incident he told me “I like you but you have some weaknesses, go study on this problem and I’ll call you for a second interview soon”. With a relieved but disturbed inside I said thank you and found my way out of the office and back to my car. Although the interview wasn’t perfect, I was sure I left a good impression.

After a week I was called in for the second interview and yes I did study the problem I missed on my first interview. When I studied about it, I found out I knew exactly what he asked about but i was too nervous and couldn’t recall the solution =.=”. The second interview only took like 5 minutes and right after that he told me “Welcome to the team, you can join us on Monday”. I felt so elated, I didn’t think I’d get a job this fast but I knew this was not going to be the job I’d be sticking to for a long time. My plan was to move to Toronto at the end of the year and this was a good experience and it kind of helped me boost my self confidence.

So readers, even if you’re scared or nervous or not confident, brace yourself and walk through it. My teacher in high school told me this once, “The mighty Elephant in the zoo is only tied down by a tiny Iron Chain which he can break anytime he wants, but he doesn’t know that”. If the elephant knew this he would be free anytime he wanted, but he was never confident enough to try it. So guys, don’t be that elephant that’s trapped in a zoo, be the mighty Elephant king in the rainforest every creature is scared of :) Peace Out

Anime and Manga are now one of my biggest past time. Some may even
call me and anime otaku but I seriously doubt I’m that fanatic.
It all started when I started reading Hong Kong comics which were
translated to Malay during my school days. Then one of my friend
started moving into another interesting comic which was still new
in the Malaysian market called Dragon Ball or in Malay “Mutiara
Naga”. At this time I had no idea what Manga and Anime was, in fact
I didn’t know dragon ball has an animated series. We used to save
money and buy the comic every month. For a long time the only
Japanese Manga I knew was dragon ball and another “less interesting”
Doremon. I preferred watching Doremon rather than reading it. As
far as I’m concerned I don’t consider non oriental made comics or
cartoons as Manga or Anime :P.

When the Dragon Ball series came to an end I had forgotten totally
about anime and Manga until I started University. I had a housemate
who was also my primary and high school mate called Cheong Sei How.
He introduced me to this fascinating new anime called “Naruto” some
6 years ago, we used to download the anime every week to watch the
show. Then I felt it was not enough as once a week was too slow and
started exploring other anime series such as shaman king, hunter x
hunter, Fullmetal Alchemist, Samurai X, One Piece and a few more.
Then I found out one of my course mates in university was called the
the “Anime King” he had downloaded practically every half decent
anime we’re ever heard off. So I used to borrow many burned VCDs
from him and watch it in my apartment. He became my personal Anime
supplier.

After I was done with most of my favorite anime I had to settle
with downloading new episode every week, slowly I got really bored
of downloading.I stopped downloading and started buying the DVD
compilations that were sold in CD shops every 3 months. As time
passed I never sourced for new Series and just went on watching
Naruto. I introduced Naruto to my cousin and he also got into and
he got heavily into anime and he started reading the latest episode
in Manga while watching anime and I followed suit. He introduced
more Anime/Manga to me such as Bleach, D-Grayman and such.

Then I used to talk to my gf about anime and she introduced things
anime like Monsters, Gants and a pretty interesting one called
Futari Ecchi. Futari Ecchi is definitely the anime that has given
me the most knowledge for use in the real life. If you want to know
what I mean, you google it up :D. It’sgood stuff, you won’t regret
it LOL.

Here the list of the TOP 10 anime I like
1. Naruto
2. Dragon Ball
3. Samurai X (Kenshin)
4. D Grayman
5. Bleach
6. Futari Ecchi
7. Full Metal Alchemist
8. Gantz
9. Inuyasha
10. Shaman King

Hope you guys would enjoy these anime when you get around to
watching it. Have fun guys, peace out. Time to go celebrate my
birthday :)

When I was 5 my parents bought me this building block toy
called “Lacy”, I doubt many of you will know what this thing
is. The most unique and popular block in this set is a “H”,
those who have played it should remember it now. That was
like my favourite toy my entire childhood. I used to build all
kinds of things, even making things that are not in the building
guide book. It really helped my analytical skills because of the
different angels I had to think to get what I wanted done. That
was practically the first thinking game I got into.

Then when I was 7, two of my cousins who were already
working by then got me two fascinating games. The first one
was Monopoly and the other was a Chess set. Monopoly was
such a fun game to play with the family, every time my
cousins came around I’d whip out the monopoly set and we’ll
sit in a corner laughing, shouting and having so much fun hehe.
But the game that really captivated me was Chess. The first
day I got it, mom thought me all the rules and we had a test
game, guess what? I beat her in the first game! Lol. From then
onwards I was really fixated in chess. I joined the school chess
club and soon started representing the school on tournaments.
A couple of my uncles were supposedly good in chess; every
time I see them I’ll bug them to have a game with me. Even
if I lost every game I every played with them.

My skill in Chess rapidly improved in the next two years, I
became one of the top players in school and I only couldn’t
beat one uncle by the time I was 10. This improvement kept
increasing till I even represented my University in a prestigious
International tournament, and I even mange to play a game
with a Chinese Grandmaster and get a “Draw” out of it. Now,
no one in my extended family can beat me in chess, but I’m
definitely not the best either. I still get pawned in tournaments
with good players.

When I was about 12, my friends and I started playing another
board game called “Risk”. This game was like nothing I’ve
ever seen before. It was like a computer game on a board :P
Strategies, alliances, manipulation, armies, territories....wow
the whole package!! This game took over the monopoly
sessions i used to have with cousin. Now days every chance
we get, we’ll play Risk instead. Around the same time, I got
into computer games also. Played games like Command and
Conquer, Xcom Apocalypse, Heroes of Might and Magic,
Diablo, War Hammer, War Craft, Counter Strike and a bunch
more. The games I like the most are the RTS games, more
thinking to do then blind hack and slash. I think it really
improves analytical skills and thinking out of the box and not
to mention the other knowledge we get like history and
cultures.

Even my favourite sport has the element of thinking and making
split second decisions to be a good player. I think most sports
have this element though, like tennis, American football, hockey
and a lot more. In my case it’s football (soccer), of course you
can get through this game with pure brute force, but when you
incorporate some thinking into your game it makes you stand
out. Knowing when to pass, when to move forward, when to
move back and when to shoot according to your teams formation
is really important to ensure a good strategy to win a game.
Games like these makes it less boring and a lot more fun. If you
think about it, our whole life is a thinking game, if you don’t
think through life you won’t get very far. So think before you do
things, think before you say things, think before you do anything.
That’s it for this post, hope you all enjoyed it and see ya’ll in the
next one. Peace out ^_^

Angels, Demons and Aliens :P
Talk about the mother of mysteries. Well at the end of the last
post I gave a sneak preview of this entry and said i’ll talk about
angels and demons, as how I view it. In my opinion demons are
no more than other living creatures that live among us. If this is
true then why can’t we see them you may ask. Well cause it’s
how they are? Haha I know it’s like what the heck am I saying.
Seriously don’t take my word for any of this. I’m just speculating
I think demons are just other creatures in another frequency
living on the same planet or are aliens that come from a different
planet whom are in a different wavelength from our presence.
Why are they here and why do they torment our souls? Like I’ve
said before, our soul are from an inexhaustible energy source.
Demons may have found a way to tap this energy source to feed
their technology or their lives, which is why they hold on to the
souls that they find wondering around. These souls are made to
carry out their biddings to capture more human souls who are
still in a host body.

Now then, who are the angels? Well, like i said in the first post
the god(the mighty energy) has a task to balance everything.
So, naturally the forces of the demon have the force of angels
to be aware of. The Angels might be from the same race as the
demons who dislike the way the demons take advantage of
other lives (Think Autobot and Deceptacons LOL). It all comes
down now to who are these guys? They may be in this planet
way before humans were here, just invisible to our eyes and
only showing themselves when they want themselves to be
seen or they might be travelling aliens finding new source of
energy. Another theory is that they are from a parallel
dimension who found a way to travel between life plains.

Dimensions, there is a theory that there is more than just one
universe around, what i’m inclined to believe that might be
true. This is because i believe everything will have to come in
pair since everything needs a balance in power. If there is our
dimension then there must be another to balance the
equilibrium. So there might be more than 2 also, there might be
four or eight or a lot more. Well this just means we have to not
only look to space but also total realities. I know I’m taking my
theories too far lol. So i think i better stop now hahaha. So guys
that’s it for my supernatural post the next in line is “games
that need thinking”.

The meaning of supernatural is a power that seems to defy
or go beyond thenatural forces as we know it. This topic has
captivated me for a long long time. I have to say i have
experienced super natural things, I can't explain these things.
Well if i have enough space in this entry i will share a some
of my experiences. Before I start, supernatural is not only
ghosts and demons and stuff. Here a list of things I think goes
under supernatural, things human science can't answer:

- God
- Life (Soul)
- Ghosts
- Angels / Demons
- Aliens
- Phycics and Predictions
- Dimensions

These are the things I can think of now, but I’m sure there are
more. May be all these things are linked together in a science
not yet known to man or just the science we have now is not
even right. This would explain why these things are not
considered natural.



First off, God. One of the most controversial topic in the
history of mankind. his topic is only controversial because
mankind added something called religion into it. Regardless
of which religion there is no doubt that there is a force which
we deem the creator. So, who is this god? Who is our creator?
It’s strange then I think about it, if we’re created by god, who
created god? Well I have a theory about this though. I think
god is no other then an energy source, god has no life(It’s
immortal/ Inexhaustible energy), has no thought but has a way
to balance out equilibrium of the universe. If something goes
to the extreme in one end of the universe, this energy source
will correct it by sending the same about of extreme force to
balance it. We’re all created in the image of the energy like
what the bible says because in every one of us there is an
inexhaustible power source, which is life/soul. Before you go
bashing in my ideas, I’m not asking you to believe what I say
or accept my theories. This is just my speculation.

So now the discussion leads us to Life/Soul. I think the soul
that is somehow transmitted to us when we’re new embryo’s,
a tiny little piece of energy from the creator force. This energy
might be from this world (Earth), or it may be from space, or
from previous souls that had to leave their body due to death.
For some reason we all feel there is more then just our body
in us, don’t we? It feels like you’re more than the physical
presence you have. If this is not true, why do we have burial
ceremonies for millennia’s? This thing we feel, I think is the
soul or our life force that will not extinguish at the end of our
physical presence. So what happens to us when we die, you
may ask. Well some of us may go back to rejoin the great force,
some of us may linger on to find another host, some of us may
still have unfinished business (ghosts) and some of us may be
enslaved by a bigger force of energy that does not allow us to
pass.

Now comes the topic of ghosts. Life as human is a competitive
one, so much so we all have to take care of ourselves, our family
and our loved ones. Some of us adopt great desires, may be an
ambition or great love towards another soul. These feelings make
our soul become unstable until we attain our goals. What happens
when we lose our host body due to death before we can attain our
goals? Our souls remain unstable and in an unstable condition we
are not able to move on. Most of the time the feeling we carry isn’t
enough to destabilize oursoul, but some people can really be
obsessive towards some things and their souls are left behind.
Some of you may say, this is all a big piece of bullshit, there is no
such things as ghosts. Well believe what you want to, I’ve had my
share of experiences to believe otherwise. People who know me
may have heard of my experiences, but I don't feeling like going
into details about them at the moment, There are also souls who
are trapped not because their unstable, but because a stronger force
is holding them back. These are the things I call demons, and the
next part i'll cover on this faul energies and their rivals, the angels.

This post kinda got out of hand and became way too lon for one
post. So, I guess i'll keep the rest for another installment of "The
Supernatural". I hope you had a nice read, not aksing you to belive
them, these are jsut my thoughts and theories.
Peace out till next time guys.

Football, the game of the planet no sport has been played more
widely and more frequently then this game on earth. It's also
the one game I'd live and die for if i was given a chance, just
too bad I wasn't born to Ian Rush or Jurgen Klinsmann. It all
started with my dad buying me a ball, there was an open field
right opposite my house where all the kids used to come and play
at 5:30 in the evening and I'll be usually there by 5 with my
ball kicking around waiting for friends.

If one of them see me on the field, they will go round up like
4 or 5 kids from around the area and come join me on the field.
When the 6 of us play more kids will see us and join us, there
were about a total of 10-14 kids in my area who'd be waiting
for the 5:30 kick-off and would be cursing the rain if it showed
it's face. They they hated having to go tuition during that
time on some days. This is where my passion for football bloom,
even my dad, back then about 45yo you'd join us and play.

He'd usually be the goal keeper, but never misses the chance
to take free kicks and penalties. If he was taking it, no kid
would dare be the goal keeper LOL. His kick was like a missle
launcher, seeing my dad play soon older kids started joining
us. Wow it was such a challenge playing with them, but I loved
it, I learned so much from them. As for being a fan of club
sides, it was the golden age of the malaysian league, unlike
the mess they call a league now. I was a supporter of the red
giants, Selangor F.C and I always love to watch Selangor play
Singapore. Yes singapore back then was int he malaysian league.

Players like K.Senbagamaran and Azman Adnan were real idols to
me. As time passed, Singapore left the Malaysian league to set
up their own league, which is a lot better then the malaysian
league now. The interest I had in the Malaysian league slowly
dwindled. Then I moved my attention to the world cup and Euro.
in Euro 1990, I was a big fan of West Germany, with my fav
player of all time so far(Gerrard and Torres will over throw
him soon) leading the German attack, Jurgen Klinsman. Rightly
so, West Germany won the world cup that year beating Argentina
in the final.

This world cup though open my eyes to sooo many talented players
with the likes of Diego Maradona, Roberto Baggio, Paulo Maldini,
Davor Suker, Paul Gascoigne and Marco Van Basten. I watch them
play every single game and tried to copy their moves on my front
yard. Guess what, it really helped ever since then I just kept
getting better and better in football and before I knew it, I
made the school team. The teacher(coach) told me I'm skinny and
I need to put on some weight, I still got a few game experience
under my belt though.

Between that time and the next world cup, I had already become
an important player in my school team and had played football
every evening in the field if it wans't raining. The 1994 world
cup was also an amazing experience and I was still supporting
Germany since Klinsman was still there. I've not seen another
player in the world cup who scores as many goals as him. He
scored in nearly every game germany played, such and awesome
player. By this time though, I was already a Liverpool fan and
I was pretty sad that England did not qualify, I really wanted
to see Robbie Fowler and Steve McManaman playing for England
in the world cup.

This world cup was a lot more of a leanring experience then the
last one because now I knew a lot more things about football
and had a betetr control of the ball then before. This is when
I started perfecting my dribbling skills, I could take on 3 to
4 players at a time when I was playing for my school then. I was
not the hero of the school team, although I provided a lot to
the school main strikers who were twins. They were awesome too,
I had so much confidence in they goal poaching ability that I
wouldn't shoot if I had the chance to pass to them even if I
had a clear shot. I was afraid i'd miss and I was sure they'd
never miss.

I still kept on playing every evening and become better and
better but second year in secondary school I decided to stop
playing for school because I didn't like the coach who kept
complaining that I was too thin although by then I was already
a good player. I was probably the 4/5th best player in my year
in school in the attacking/midfield position. Since then I only
played in inter class tournerments and school sports day. I
had also become a hardcore Liverpool fan and started practicing
complicated skills at home in the evenings.

When I got to university, football was also something I did every
evening. I had a football star status in Uni, it was the peak
of my form, till I injured my ligerment and never fully recovered
back to the same form again. Still not too bad though, before
I could aim a cone on the goal post from the middle of the field
without missing it, that accuracy wasn't there anymore. I still
played for my uni and a club called Bear Hill United in the MMU
league. Those were fun times, now days I'm more into indoor
football(futsal). I am the lynchpin of my futsal team, the mvp.
haha I wish I was born to Jurgen Klinsmann, with the passion I
had and his training, I would have be playing by the side of
Torres and Gerrard hunting for the Champions League and Premier
League titles.

Liverpool is at the a point where it's argueably in the best
form of any team in the world. Trashing the two biggest clubs
in the world Real Madrid and Manchester United. Now, they have
been drawn against Chealsea in the champions league, how I wish
i could terrorize them with torres and gerrard. I don't have the
skill I need for that, so I'm giving all my heart to you guys
to bring back the European champions league to Anfield for the
6th time!!

That's if for this entry, c ya'll. Peace out ^_^

Every since I was a little boy, I was never really a fan of books.
I was always the boy meddling with his building block making
everything from Aeroplanes to Windmills. When I went to my first
year in school, I saw a friend reading a kids story book with
pictures and story(King Author). I didn't read though, I just
flipped through the pages to see the pictures and make out the
story but the more i see the pictures the more I wanted to read it
so one day I borrowed the King Author and the Roundtable Knights
book from the library to read.

I read the first few pages it was really exiting, but something
just deflected my attention from it. This time it were the lone wolf
game books, I saw my friends playing it and writing down their
stats and battles, I was so intrigued. I wanted one of those books
so bad. One day when we passed by the book shop I persuaded my mom
to get me the book, mom thought it was some kinda story book or
something and would be good. I went back home and immediately
tried to make sense of the whole thing reading the instructions
and everything, i didn't get it lol.

The next day I went to school and asked my friend how to play and
he thought me. Since then my whole attention was on the game book
and i'll play the whole day long. It was the most fun I had at
that time. The game book made my interest in Medieval battle with
sword and magic flourish. After i was done with my book I exchanged
it with my friend's book and so on, ended up finishing quite a few books.
Then at one point there were no more game books, but by this
time I understood all these medeival stories and things. I found
my old unreturned King Author book LOL(yeah never returned it >.<)

I took my time to read that book and it was the best book I've
read, the honour, the skills, the magic, the knights and the weapons.
I loved it, so many of the things I created were named Excalibur
hahaha. Everything from a sword drawing to a hand craved ice cream
stick. From then on I never read any stories that didn't involve
magic and adventure and swords. Some of the other books I read were
a local folk lore called "Hang Tuah", Treasure Islands, Sinbad and a few
more(younger days).

Not only did I like the novels, when I got my computer, even games
were only those with sword and magic (except a few like X-Com).
I always wanted to be a knight or an adventurer saving the damsel
in distress hahaha. After years and years of Swords and Magic, I
found the best book ever written, The Lord of the Rings!! This was
what my whole life of reading swords and magic was meant for LOL.
The best book ever, I became a fanatic and soon after the movies
were released. Most fantastic movies ever made, I wished I was
one of the Riders of Rohan, the mounted warriors from the West
Fold.

Then after that it was Harry Potter, although it was not as good
as Lord of The Rings Harry Potter was full of adventure and magic.
I loved these books too and I read all of them. How I wished life
could be all about training with swords and magic, protecting your
kingdom/family/friends from harm, saving a beautiful maiden and
make her fall in love with you and live happily ever after haha.
If only life was as interesting, this is one of the reasons why
MMORPG attracted me, it was an alternate life where you can really
become a Legend, a warrior people respect and enemies fear.

Honour and Courage has been me all my life and
i'll never change it.

That's it for my episode 2. More to come soon, peace out guys ^_^

PS: Riders of Rohan Music...I love the part from 2:25 - 3:20 have
a listen ^^

The next morning I woke up and I dind't realize
that had a sore leg. I don't have a bed frame in
my room, my matress is on the floor. This means
it's a lot more effort waking up in the morning.
On that day I placed my right leg down and tried
pulling myself up, it hurt like hell >.< I groaned
and fell back on to my bed... I had to lay in bed
till I could collect my strength pull myself up
with my left leg.

I got off bed hopped on one leg and want to wash
up. So freaking troublesome jumping everywhere on
one foot. As I was going downstairs, mom said the
neighbours offered to take me to this chinese
medicine man(Shensei). I was like..."huh? the doc
asked me not to stress my right leg till the 10th"
and my mom said, "Nevermind, Sharon(my neighbour)
says this guy is really good...lets see what he
can do". I thought to myself...if he can get things
better and i said ok.

After breakfast, mom went out and called the
neighbours and they said they'll take me to the
shensei right now. So I got ready and headed
out, climbed onto his car and went to this
shensei's place. The place was like a chinese
village with big taoist temples a quite a few
medicine man practice center. Everytime I saw one
I went...ahh is it this one? and Eddie(neighbour)
says "nah not this one, the one we're going to
is the sifu(master)" haha. Then Sharon says "This
guys treatments are painful you know?", unnessasarily
making me scared T.T

Finally we got to the place, it was practically a
house. There were old women cleaning vegetable in
front of the house, little kids jumping and playing
with thier toys and dogs roaming around the front
yard. There was this tiny board infront of the house
with chinese characters and a cell phone number.
Eddie took out his cell phone and called the number.
After the call Eddie says, The shensei is on the way.
In my mind, i thought the shensei is gonna be a old
guy with greay facial hair. But that was not to be
true.

About 2 minutes later, a guy came riding on his
motorcycle and Eddie say "There, that's the guy".
What I say was a young man whow as around his 30s
with his hair slickly combed back with some hair gel.
I was surprised, "Wow that's the shensei?" and Eddie
replies "Ya ya that's him". As the shensei walks by
the show us to the door and we follow behind him.
He asked the kids to move away and asked me to sit
on this rattan sofa.

After a while he came back out carrying a small box.
Sat on the floor and asked me what was wrong. I told
him the doctor told me i have a ligerment tear. He
said "ok" and took off the huge bandage on my leg.
he had no mercy what so ever!!! He was treating me
as if nothing was wrong >.< it hurt like a bitch =.="
Then he said something to sharon in cantonese, and
sharon said "He says something on your ankle is not
in place". The next thing I know he's pressing the
place that hurt the most and twisting my leg left and
right...even thinking of it make me feel the pain T.T
Then he says, stand up now and put your leg down.
I did it and it was much less of a pain, I was wondering
if it was because my leg is better now or just because
he just caused my troumendous pain and this pain was
nothing compared to what he did...haha.

Nevertheless it felt better and I told him
"Ya, sekarang kurang sakit" (Yeah it hurts lass now)
Then he takes this traslucent yellow paper, put some
dung coloured herb on it and placed it on my ankle.
Don't worry though, It didn't smell like dung,
it smelled fine like herbs haha. He bandaged my leg
without the support thingy I had before and asked me
to try walking again. Now I could walk ok o.O, I was
like "whoah!, talk about a miracle" O.o After that
he takes that same kinda herb he put on my leg, rolls
it into tiny circles and asked me to take it twice a
day for two days and i'll be fine.

He charged us Rm30 and sent us back home, I thanked
him and left. Can you imagine? I paid nearly Rm2000
in the hospital that said I'd need 12 days to walk and
this guy charged me RM30 and got me wlkaing immediately!!
What the heck do those doctors learn?!! >.< ask them
all to go learn chinese medicine...lol. Anyway, since
then my walking got a lot better although I can't kick
yet. The miracle man saved me!! Yatta!!

So, guys and girls...next time you get an injury...
go see the shensei!! not the doctor!!....
Honestly i don't know if that's good advice LOL but
this guy surely was the hero of the day haha.
That's it for "The tragedy and the miracle worker"
trilogy. Hope it gave you some insight...c ya guy
=Peace out=

Despite having the injury, I didn't feel too much pain when
I walked. I took sometime to rest at the futsal court lobby
area with a ice pack on my foot and decided to take a 30mins
drive home. The pain was evident when I was driving but I
guess my hunger was taking over my pain at that time. As I
was reaching home, I took a short detour to the chinese
restorant nearby to make a take away order for fried rice.

I sat down there alone listening to my ipod waiting for my
food and the girl in the restorant brought some chinese tea
on the house. She sat on the table and asked me what
happened to my leg and why I was limping a little and I
told her what happened. Soon, the food was ready, I paid
and left. From there it was less then a 5 mins drive back
home.

I got out of the car and struggled to carry all the stuff I had
in the car with me into the house. Laptop bag on my back,
futsal shoes and sock on one hand, my drity clothing bag on
the other hand, my wallet and cell phone some how squeesed
in since i had no pockets on my pants and added to it the
fried rice i just bought. I had to carry all this and still close
the car door and open the gate to get into my house with a
hurting leg lol. I still managed to get till the front door and
my mom let me in.

As soon as I got it i jsut left everything near the stairs and
took my fried rice into the kitchen and layed it on a silver
plate, grabed a bottle of cold iced water, walked into the
living room, carshed on my sofa and started stuffing myself
while watching TV. The pain on my foot didn't even phase
me at that moment. After eating two peoples worth of fried
rice, I cleaned my plate and came abck to the sofa to rest and
continue the show on the TV. Only then I realized my sister
and an eye patch on her right eye and that she went for a
surgery to remove a swelling below her right eye. A minor
surgery. I continued watching TV after a couple of questions.

When the show was over I was going to head to the bath to
clean up. The pain on my ankle acted up >.<, I coulnd't put
too much weight on my foot. So I limped badly to my room
and straight got into the shower. I took my bath and changed
with some difficulty and crashed into my bed to get some rest.
Took out my notebook and played Xenogear on the bed >.<
After awhile i got tired of it, turned off the notebook and stood
up. The pain was excruciating , I knew somehting must be
done about it. I limped back down stairs mostly jumping on
one leg and asked my mom to put some deep heat on it and
wrap my leg up. Damn....the deepheat wraped on my leg was
even more painful then the pain itself hahaha.

With that I went back into my room and I slept, a really
uncomfortable sleep >.< In the morning, i coulnd't stand up!!
Any weight on my right foot would trigger into a frensy of
super pain!! So I just layed back on bed, my dad came into the
room and asked..."What happened to your leg?" and I replied
"Futsal injury". Then the shouting and cursing started and it
ended with a "You're not going to go for futsal anymore?!!"
I was thinking "Yeah that's right, with this injury i'm definately
not going for futsal for at least 3/4 months" >.< After some
yanking and scolding, he walked way and i continued laying
on my bed sleepily. Then he came back to the room and asked
"What time are you coming to the office?!!" and i replied
"I can't even walk now" >.< He got pissed and left for work.

After a few hours i finally manage to collect some strength to
get off the bed and hop down to the living room down stairs
on one leg. About 30 mins into it, I get a call from my mom
"Be ready at 12, we're going to the hospital". So at 11 I started
getting ready and as planned, mom came over at 12 and we
took a drive to the hospital. When we got there I hopped to a
chair and sat down till waiting for my mom to park her car. When
she got back I passed my ID and Insurance card and she rent to
register me and the counter. Soon came a bangladeshi man pushing
a wheelchair, I climb on it and the guy pushed me straight to
the Sports Injury specialist room.

I went in and the docter asked me what happened and i explained.
The he started putting pressure into some parts of my ankle to
see where it hurts and what not. Then he says, it looks like a
ligerment tear and it's definately not a fracture (which i already
knew) but I'll have to get an xray just to be sure. He told me
he'll have to admit me into the hospital to keep me under check.
He put a support thingy on my leg, bandaged it up sent be back to
the admin people to ward me. I had to wait for almost 3 hour to
get into the room allocated, talk about slow >.< As soon as I got
into the room I asked my mom to send a message to my girlfriend
on MSN, I didn't want her to worry why I was missing. =.=" So there
I was in this lonely room.

I was to rest in bed until the doctor says i'm free to go.I lasted
in the hospital about a day and the half. Food sucked big time,
luckily it was a single room with Astro on the TV and I also had
my laptop, without internet tho. I spent most of the time playing
Xenogear, watching football and movies on TV. The doctor came into
the room the next day and sent me to the xray room. After the xray
I was rolled back into the depressing room for more rounds of
xenogear, then the doctor came in and told me I'm ok and it will
just take time to heal and there is no need for surgery. I was
thinking, "what?! you were thinking about surgery!!, oh man thank
god" He also told me I have medical leave till the 10th of February
and that's when I'll be allow to put pressure on my foot.

The next day I got discharged from the hospital and was given cruches
to walk. With that I came back home desparately wanting to go online.
That's not going to happen because there is no internet at home yet,
Telecoms SUCK!!! I wasn't allowed to go to the office either with these
cruches since, I'll need to walk up 3 floors to get into the office. The whole
day passed by on Xenogear again and eventually I got tired and slept the
night through. to be continued....

The day started well, I had to renew my driving license
which was already expired for 3 months and I didn't realize.
Good thing no policeman stopped me during that period.
Since I didn't have valid license I followed mom to the
office. She had a few things to do before she could take
me to renew my license.

As soon as she was done we went to the post office to
renew my license. It all went smooth i had an option of
renewing it for a term of 5 year which cost RM30 a year.
Since i didn't have any intention of being in Malaysia
two years from then. I renewed the license only for 2
years, paid RM60 and they printed a new license immediately.
I have to say it was the fastest transaction with the
government I’ve had in my life.

When I got back to the office before my dad sent me on
a chore. As I was driving to the place my dad
directed me to go, I called up my cousin to ask him if
there was futsal on that day as we planned earlier and I
confirmed with him that I’ll be going.

After work I headed back home and got ready for futsal.
The day was pretty normal for me but I had no idea what
was in store for me later that day. After everything was set
I drove down to the futsal court, and at 5 we started playing.
The teams looked pretty balanced at first especially with
Nickholas on my side, Nick has always been a good midfield
holder and with me running around all over the court I thought
it would be good enough.

The opponents though later I realized, had all runners.
A group of people who work tirelessly, and the only one
doing that in my team was me. Nickholas hasn’t got used
to the Malaysian weather yet since coming back from UK
and obviously has had too much ciggies back in UK. He
got tired fast and I had to push extra hard to keep things
close in score. I realized i’ve found my shooting power again
after a long absence without it. I was happy with my
performance but i couldn’t say the same with my team.

I ended up running up to attack and also running back
down doing the covering and blocking. Then after 45 mins
into the game came my turning point. The ball dropped free
right in between Chandra and me. I can see Chandra running
towards the ball winding up a huge strike on it, at the back
of my head I was thinking “The way he’s shaped he’s going to
balloon this shot” but nevertheless I didn’t want to take the
chance and decided to put my feet across the ball to block it.
Hoping he would realize there is no chance of him scoring this
and try a different way but I forgot, Chandra doesn’t really
think much when he’s playing football >.<

The full took a full winded shot on the ball together with my
Leg and in that moment I knew this was going to hurt.
Rightly so, the pain stung thru my nerves and fell holding my
ankle. I got up pretty fast as usual, because I always think
pain is just part of football and if you want to be good at it
you must not fear pain. I knew I couldn’t continue running
for at least a little while so I opted to play goal keeper till
I could move comfortably again. It never happened, after
a few minutes I knew the injury was serious but I just
didn’t know how serious just yet. To be continued....

Chinese New Year,

This coming year will be the year of the Ox,
that seriously is the last thing in my mind when I think of
this period though. Chinese new year for me is about meeting
my cousins and relatives. The part of my family I only see
once or twice in a year (unless something like a wedding happens).

I have a tough time communicating with quite a few of them,
but even with the lack of communication I feel very accepted
when I go back for chinese new year. I don't speak neither
Mandarin nor Hokkien and some of my relatives can't speak
english. When they are in a group talking I try to comprehend
what they say since I do understand a little bit of hokkein and
mandarin but my efforts always end up futile half way through
the convo haha (too many unknown words).

Nevertheless they are such warm people, I do feel the love when
I'm with them which makes me never ever want to miss my
chinese new year reunion dinner ^^. I also get to eat every two
hours...haha yeah it's cool like that!! The sweetest part of the deal
has to definately be the "Ang Pow", who else gives you money in
a small red packets without expecting anything back? :P

It's the time when family is more important then anything else,
and it's the time when we meet new family members. Cousins who
bring thier bf/gf to the chinese new year reunion usually end up
married a few years down the road. It's kind of a platform to
introduce your choice to the family. Hahaha, my aunties are already
asking me where is my girlfriends....grrrr. I'm not ready to get
married yet hahaha. It's also amazing to see how fast the neices
and nephews grow when you see them only onces a year.

I can't wait to go to the family reunion this year. This year it's in my
uncles house all the way in Johor Bharu and my dad says we might
not make the trip there....argh....come on man...it's just once a year.
I'll somehow try to make it there despite my dad's decision though.

Mandarin orenges, dried pork slices, and a massive dinner and metting
loved ones....why would i ever miss that :D

enjoy people ^_^ Happy chinese new year
peace out

What happens when you see something and believe it's the real thing
but it's not really how it actually is? Since that is the only thing you
can see, you wouldn't know what was better because that's as good
as it gets for you. Lets say you had an eyesight that was different from
everyone else, lets say yours is more dull then everyone else's. Would
you think the world is not beautiful or would you say it's beautiful
because you're never seen anything better? as in "this is as good as it
gets" and 1+1 can never become 10. I don't know how this thought
was triggered in my biological processor but it's really making me
think. What if what I see and the best I can get isn't really the best
thing. I won't notice that i'm having something less because i'm not
capable of experiencing better things. When i look at it this way, i
think the person with the dull eyes won't really think the world is not
beautiful unless that person is really creative and can really think out
of the box. It may just be fantasy though, but imagine someone like
that manages to bring that world they think is more beautiful. Now
the questions arises if aesthetics are comparisons or static facts? I
don't know

All i know is if the person thinks it's not beautiful with a dull eyesight,
it's actually really good and it means that person has a really good
imagination. People who can see things they can't see are geniuses ,
can you imagine a material form which is not gas, not liquid and not
solid. Can you come up with an idea of a material which was not any
of those? Only a person who can do that will think the world is not
beautiful with a dull eyesight because they can think of things that
doesn't exist in their world. I can conclude with this that, what your
think is nice is nice and what you think is not nice is not nice.
Everything we think is just a state of our mind. As simple as that.
When the brain thinks that, then there is no stopping them, as far
as they are concerned, what they think they know is what they know
and they are not losing out on anything because they don't know
what's better.

It's really strange to think about it, may be what you think is good
isn't really the best. If we keep trying to get better then what we can
get, we might just become crazy and weird. So it's not entirely
healthy to do so. The end of this is.... just be happy with who you
are, because if you're happy and you are that the best state you can
be in then you have no worries. You're happy and that's the bottom
line....because elniniyo said so :P

I hate writing but it’s not the concept of expressing myself with words but just the fact it’s a lot more effort writing than showing or talking. Have you guys thought of telling someone everything you felt throughout in your life? For people who have written journals or diaries this would be easy, they can just past the dairy to the person they wanted to tell the story to. I’ve never written any diaries because the story of my life. I’m pretty secretive and very choosy of the people I tell things to. What I tell people is just the how much they need to know, not lies though. Well there have been lies, but not to the important people in my life.

Back to the topic, who are the people you would tell the story of your life to? I was watched this movie recently “Definitely Maybe” and seeing the guy open up his past to his daughter made me think if I can ever do that. May be I have done so many stupid things in the past that I just want to bury it and just forget about it. The thing I did in the past doesn’t reflect the things I do now because I changed. Everyone you meet in the way changes you, not that I did a lot of terrible things. May be a little lie there and a little lie here making myself look bigger and better then I am (I don’t do that regularly, just when I feel threatened).

Anyway, who can this person be? Because I know at one point of my life I will have to do this, I have this thing that I want to show someone the mistakes I did and the right things I did so that they would learn from it or they would tell me how I can improve myself. An opinion of another person is always good because they can see things you don’t. This person though can’t be some stranger to me because I can’t open up to someone who I don’t fully trust yet and not everyone I fully trust I can tell these things to.

I guess I will find this out when the time comes. This was really some kind of useless reading to you guys I think lol. Just something I was thinking to myself, sorry to make you read so much with nothing much to gain >.<>

Every year a few games like movies will have a few big titles to look forward to. Games would gear up their PCs or get new consoles as preparations to welcome these big titles. The most common once are the sequels, as the new name games will still be unknown.

This time round I have quite a few games I'm looking forward to, nowadays not many games attract me so I hope they can maintain their good performance as far as I'm concern. THe titles i'm looking forward to are Final Fantasy 13 (play station 3), Diablo 3 (PC) and Fallout 3.

I'll start with final fantasy 13, there are no PS gamer who like RPG can say no to a Final Fantasy franchise. To me final fantasy 12 was kind of a mess up by square enix, as far as I'm concern that games sucked massively. Final fantasy 13 though has brought back the good looking main characters, which I've kinda missed lol, the graphics are awesome, the only set back for me is the change of the turn based system. I loved the old final fantasy game play which is more to planing rather then reactions, may be i just suck at fast game play lol. (i'm pretty decent with cs though, funny >.<)

The next would be Diablo 3, Diablo is a game that really gets me sucked into it. I played Diablo 1 over and over and over again with all the character, I simply loved it. I think i have a thing for medieval weapons and armour, games with swords and bows and staff are my thing haha. Blizzard is also famous for it's storyline and it wonderful CG, the short clips after ever Act/Part is unbelievably good. Diablo 1 and 2 is definitely in my favorite game list and I was so exited to know Diablo 3 is also in it's way :D

Fallout 2 was only one of the games that got me sucked it for sometime, although the games wasn't as smooth as i'd have liked it to be, it was still massive fun. I like their turn base system. Turn based games are my games :) I hope Fallout 3 will improve their functionality story while maintaining the fun turn based system.

Now for the sad part....I need to find the money to both upgrade the pc and also get a ps3 T.T

It was 4am in the morning, there was a knock on my room door. I open it and see my cousin there with my dad and my cousin says "Your dad just got into a massive accident, the car is gone". My first instinct was to look at my dad, he was standing straight and he was stable "Thank God, i said to myself". My heart was beating but the fact that he was standing there took a whole lot of weight out of me.

What would have happened to my family if our sole bread winner was lost, I know i'm not so close to my dad as many others would be, but i still love him. In the end he is my dad no matter what he did, I don't want to lose him ever. It made me so angry though, this was is third time in two months to have and an accident in the middle of the night.

What the hell is wrong with him? This time it was so close to him being injured badly. Is it a must to go out and get drunk at night? Is it so important that it means it's a chance of losing his life? My dad and many other people need to learn that driving under influence of alcohol is the main catalyst to road accident deaths next to sleepiness.

He tells me "I fell asleep". Yeah you nutmeg, it's 3am in the morning and you're drunk...how else will you be? Is it really necessary to drink so much when you know your house isn't even close to near the place? Come on people, think of your loved once. Me and my mom are never gonna have a nights peace from now on if my dad is not home yet.

Never mind that, we don't want to lose the head of our family. We love you a lot dad although you make me angry all the time and make me think you're one of the dumbest person of all time in certain areas. We don't want to lose you like this, please be considerate and please love yourself too. This is definitely not the way to go. This also goes to all the other people out there who think enjoying life is more important then life. Then again, drinking alcohol is not exactly enjoying life. Care for yourself, care for your family, care for others in the road as well.

Is it me or is time moving faster? It's feels like i just went out on a new years count down with my friends and it's already October. When did i become so old....omg i'm already 25.....What the....... No gimme my teenage life back...lol

Why does it feel like times is moving so much faster? It's not only me, everyone feels it. May be it's because life now is hectic and also we have so many things to do that we don't realize how much time we spend on these things. It's a scary thought though, life is just passing by so fast and you only have one life to live.

All we can do is hope to go we're making this little time we're given to do things that are important for us because if you're doing something wrong, before you know it you're in deep shit >.< Good times move fast too, but the best thing with this is we tend to see the results of our work faster then we did before.

May be it's not faster then before, may be before we were just looking at the calender more. Now days you just decide to look on the calender when you have to fill in a form with the date or when you write a letter. Most of the time i don't know what day and date i'm in, i even get confused with the years...LOL but i guess that's just me. >.<

We have to make good decisions and reap the best of the short time we have, it feel even shorter then it was before >.< scary. Lets do the best for ourselves and bliss through the time we're give to live this life. Most importantly, don't let other suffer in the little time they have also. We rarely get a second chance these days. Time flies....peace out

What we see, what we hear and what we feel is what we think is real. What we don't realize is, how much of a lie we're living in. The human race has be toyed with by various people in the race itself to make the general population think, what they say is right. If one religion is almighty and true, why are there so many fanatics from so many religions. One of them may be right, which means the rest of them are just being toyed with. Or non of them may be even close to real. This is the situation we're living in now, blurred by the truth and also the lie.

What we see has be totally dominated my television these days. The tv has the right to brag, that it's the teacher to all. Even those without the tv is being manipulated by people who watch tv. Every argument or debate that takes place has it's own measure of lie. Politicians twist and turn their words to make them seem a lot more real then what it really is. People in the entertainment business portray false believes and make them look so good that people are tempted to do what they ask them to do and the people do it. Then again this might all not even be a lie. >.< sigh

Propaganda dominates our ears, rumors rule our actions. Neither the eye nor the ear can be trusted anymore. Then again, this has been so ever since humans were civilized, look where it has brought us. We're more modern then we ever were, everything is done so easily. We barely do 10% of the things the ancient humans did. So is manipulation good or bad?

Is making people thinking the direction you do manipulation? People may argue that you should just give them the facts and make them think for themselves. This process is a hard one these days where so many people lack simple common sense. Since this is the case people have to convince others and put what they think in a motivating manner that it's almost looks like it's manipulation to make others believe and bring them into view. No, it doesn't look almost like manipulation. It is MANIPULATION.

Even the people who have good things to portray to make life batter have to use manipulation these days. I think manipulation isn't evil anymore, it's a need. People's minds are too complex for others to see exactly what they see, so they have to explain and put it in the right order and the right tone to hit the heart of the listener. Many may argue this is not manipulation but it does sound like one to me.

Don't be worried by this, manipulation has been with us since men knew how to lead. The manipulator is the successful man, as people say some salesmen can sell ice to the Eskimo. The day you're able to do that, that's the day you're successful but that doesn't mean you're good :)

Pick the road you want to thread carefully because in this world, right and wrong is judged by a very very minuscule line. Peace out