My girlfriend, the one girl who makes my heart race to hyper speed. Just a girl I met so randomly yet she influenced me more than any other person in my life. Honestly I'm not a guy who can attract girls easily(like i need to tell this to all of you >.<), but somehow or rather I manage to capture a girl who's so amazingly beautiful :)

I always wished to have an oriental girl as my gf, I don't know why this is, may be because I've got some genes from my mom's ancestry. The one problem I had though was always language barriers. Chinese girls (most common orientals in Malaysia), most of them at least prefers guys who can speak some dilect of Chinese. Korean and Japanese girls ost of the time can only speak Korean or Japanese. What a luck I got when I met a girl who was Japanese and Korean mix who lives in Canada. Oriental girl you speaks good english, and I met her while I was still in Malaysia. Lady luck was definitely smiling at me that day.

She has the same interest I have with games, anime and manga, planes, tv shows, movies, music(altho we can differ in taste), food and many more things. I didn't know all this when I first met her, all I knew than was that she was amazing to talk to. Hours fly by like minutes when I'm with her and our convos hardly ever run dry. We always have something to talk about or debate about haha altho sometimes we do have to think little longer to come up with things to talk about. Soon after that I knew how kind and caring she is to the feelings of others. She never tries to put people in their places by speaking rudely or harshly, unlike me >.< Everything about her sparkled and shined so bright. How was I suppose to refrain from falling for her?

She has her down times too just like any other person but when that happens, it's my job to pull her back up. I will do anything to pull her back up too :) I miss her sparking shine even if it's gone for 1 minute. She thanks me for making her bounce back, but it's me who needs to thank her for letting that ray of light shine through her again. The light that turned my dark and hopeless existence to breath life again. There only one way to say how feel for her, "I Love You!!".

Every person in this planet willhave some sad and bad parts in their life and so does my gf. 1 year into our relationship, I find out she has leukemia. Man those were the darkest days of my life, what I wouldn't do safe her from it. I prayed hard and long for god to not take the one precious part of my life. I really don't know what I'd do if lost her, she's so important to me like how my own life is to me. She soon recovered from her relapse though, I couldn't have been more relieved. I wanted her to always be happy in her life, but there are times when this numb skull of mine never thinks thing through and I hurt her. I never mean to do those things, but it happened quite a few times.

I never did anything very bad though, most of the times I just happen to give her an avenue for misunderstandings. After sometime I realized this kinda things are bound to happen, we're not the same person to know what exactly each other are thinking and we're bound to have petty arguments. What happens after those arguements are what I'm most happy about our relationship. No matter what, we do end up understanding and accepting each others mistakes and put an end to it an a peaceful manner.

My girlfriend, I think of her as a special gift from god to me and to earth. She has so many talents and she's good at almost anything she does. Some guys look for girls who can take care of their homes and cook for them. Some guys look for girl who can sing and dance well and entertain them. Some guys looks for a girl who can reduce their burdens. Some guys want a girl who can satisfy them sexually. Some guys want girls who can help them challenge their minds. Well guess what, my gf is all that and a whole LOT more :D

If there was one thing more valueable to me than my own life, it's my gf. I'd do anything for her, although sometimes she has to try persuading me but in the end I know she can make me do anything. If there is something she can't make me do, than no one can. My life is useless without you hun. I'll walk through hell for you, that line is from a song but it's true,I would. You're my everything and I love you so soo sooooooo much! I'm sure we'll have a good like together so many many years to come.

Sorry guys if i got too mushy there :P This is the last installment of the 10 topics have initially listed as the top 10 parts in my life. Beyond any doubt this is also the most important part of my life. It has been 8 months since I put this list up. Pardon me, if i took too long. Have fun with the new look of my blog. Take care, live your life with love...Peace out

Anime and Manga are now one of my biggest past time. Some may even
call me and anime otaku but I seriously doubt I’m that fanatic.
It all started when I started reading Hong Kong comics which were
translated to Malay during my school days. Then one of my friend
started moving into another interesting comic which was still new
in the Malaysian market called Dragon Ball or in Malay “Mutiara
Naga”. At this time I had no idea what Manga and Anime was, in fact
I didn’t know dragon ball has an animated series. We used to save
money and buy the comic every month. For a long time the only
Japanese Manga I knew was dragon ball and another “less interesting”
Doremon. I preferred watching Doremon rather than reading it. As
far as I’m concerned I don’t consider non oriental made comics or
cartoons as Manga or Anime :P.

When the Dragon Ball series came to an end I had forgotten totally
about anime and Manga until I started University. I had a housemate
who was also my primary and high school mate called Cheong Sei How.
He introduced me to this fascinating new anime called “Naruto” some
6 years ago, we used to download the anime every week to watch the
show. Then I felt it was not enough as once a week was too slow and
started exploring other anime series such as shaman king, hunter x
hunter, Fullmetal Alchemist, Samurai X, One Piece and a few more.
Then I found out one of my course mates in university was called the
the “Anime King” he had downloaded practically every half decent
anime we’re ever heard off. So I used to borrow many burned VCDs
from him and watch it in my apartment. He became my personal Anime
supplier.

After I was done with most of my favorite anime I had to settle
with downloading new episode every week, slowly I got really bored
of downloading.I stopped downloading and started buying the DVD
compilations that were sold in CD shops every 3 months. As time
passed I never sourced for new Series and just went on watching
Naruto. I introduced Naruto to my cousin and he also got into and
he got heavily into anime and he started reading the latest episode
in Manga while watching anime and I followed suit. He introduced
more Anime/Manga to me such as Bleach, D-Grayman and such.

Then I used to talk to my gf about anime and she introduced things
anime like Monsters, Gants and a pretty interesting one called
Futari Ecchi. Futari Ecchi is definitely the anime that has given
me the most knowledge for use in the real life. If you want to know
what I mean, you google it up :D. It’sgood stuff, you won’t regret
it LOL.

Here the list of the TOP 10 anime I like
1. Naruto
2. Dragon Ball
3. Samurai X (Kenshin)
4. D Grayman
5. Bleach
6. Futari Ecchi
7. Full Metal Alchemist
8. Gantz
9. Inuyasha
10. Shaman King

Hope you guys would enjoy these anime when you get around to
watching it. Have fun guys, peace out. Time to go celebrate my
birthday :)

What makes all the pain and torture of life worth it?
To me, the biggest joy comes when I’m able to complete
a task that's challenging. This is probably one of the
main reasons why I like programming so much. It's not
easy to create a program that works well, and when I
finally get it, it feels soooo good. Makes me feel like a
creator of something that actually works lol.

The sense of achievement can come from the simplest
things and provide you with the greatest confidence.
Just a simple skill with a football would give a person
a well needed confidence to a play a football. A guy
can get one of the greatest confidence when he can
make the girl he adores fall in love with him. When I
was younger making something from my building
block was something that made me so happy, it would
be a decoration in my house for days haha.

The thing about sense of achievement is, the more
difficult the task at hand the greater we feel when we
complete it. I've not had much share of this feeling
because there are not many difficult things that i'm
very passionate about. Most of my sense joy comes from
gaming and football. The thing about gaming is, anyone
can do it if they spent enough time on it, so it's just a
time for success thingy since all you do is just sit in one
place clicking your mouse. Not difficult at all. Football
gives me a lot of joy though. I love it when i'm the
main player in a team that everyone looks up to. Even
better if we win the match or tournament.

What gives me the most joy is having my gf. She's so
amazing sometimes i feel like having a dream, kinda
hard to believe that i'm her bf haha. It's a big challenge
for us though to keep it going but neither of us are gonna
give up. So, guys and gal don't shy away from a challenge.
If it's difficult, remember that if your get it done, it
might be a highlight of your life. Cheers till next time.
Peace out ^_^

When I was 5 my parents bought me this building block toy
called “Lacy”, I doubt many of you will know what this thing
is. The most unique and popular block in this set is a “H”,
those who have played it should remember it now. That was
like my favourite toy my entire childhood. I used to build all
kinds of things, even making things that are not in the building
guide book. It really helped my analytical skills because of the
different angels I had to think to get what I wanted done. That
was practically the first thinking game I got into.

Then when I was 7, two of my cousins who were already
working by then got me two fascinating games. The first one
was Monopoly and the other was a Chess set. Monopoly was
such a fun game to play with the family, every time my
cousins came around I’d whip out the monopoly set and we’ll
sit in a corner laughing, shouting and having so much fun hehe.
But the game that really captivated me was Chess. The first
day I got it, mom thought me all the rules and we had a test
game, guess what? I beat her in the first game! Lol. From then
onwards I was really fixated in chess. I joined the school chess
club and soon started representing the school on tournaments.
A couple of my uncles were supposedly good in chess; every
time I see them I’ll bug them to have a game with me. Even
if I lost every game I every played with them.

My skill in Chess rapidly improved in the next two years, I
became one of the top players in school and I only couldn’t
beat one uncle by the time I was 10. This improvement kept
increasing till I even represented my University in a prestigious
International tournament, and I even mange to play a game
with a Chinese Grandmaster and get a “Draw” out of it. Now,
no one in my extended family can beat me in chess, but I’m
definitely not the best either. I still get pawned in tournaments
with good players.

When I was about 12, my friends and I started playing another
board game called “Risk”. This game was like nothing I’ve
ever seen before. It was like a computer game on a board :P
Strategies, alliances, manipulation, armies, territories....wow
the whole package!! This game took over the monopoly
sessions i used to have with cousin. Now days every chance
we get, we’ll play Risk instead. Around the same time, I got
into computer games also. Played games like Command and
Conquer, Xcom Apocalypse, Heroes of Might and Magic,
Diablo, War Hammer, War Craft, Counter Strike and a bunch
more. The games I like the most are the RTS games, more
thinking to do then blind hack and slash. I think it really
improves analytical skills and thinking out of the box and not
to mention the other knowledge we get like history and
cultures.

Even my favourite sport has the element of thinking and making
split second decisions to be a good player. I think most sports
have this element though, like tennis, American football, hockey
and a lot more. In my case it’s football (soccer), of course you
can get through this game with pure brute force, but when you
incorporate some thinking into your game it makes you stand
out. Knowing when to pass, when to move forward, when to
move back and when to shoot according to your teams formation
is really important to ensure a good strategy to win a game.
Games like these makes it less boring and a lot more fun. If you
think about it, our whole life is a thinking game, if you don’t
think through life you won’t get very far. So think before you do
things, think before you say things, think before you do anything.
That’s it for this post, hope you all enjoyed it and see ya’ll in the
next one. Peace out ^_^

Angels, Demons and Aliens :P
Talk about the mother of mysteries. Well at the end of the last
post I gave a sneak preview of this entry and said i’ll talk about
angels and demons, as how I view it. In my opinion demons are
no more than other living creatures that live among us. If this is
true then why can’t we see them you may ask. Well cause it’s
how they are? Haha I know it’s like what the heck am I saying.
Seriously don’t take my word for any of this. I’m just speculating
I think demons are just other creatures in another frequency
living on the same planet or are aliens that come from a different
planet whom are in a different wavelength from our presence.
Why are they here and why do they torment our souls? Like I’ve
said before, our soul are from an inexhaustible energy source.
Demons may have found a way to tap this energy source to feed
their technology or their lives, which is why they hold on to the
souls that they find wondering around. These souls are made to
carry out their biddings to capture more human souls who are
still in a host body.

Now then, who are the angels? Well, like i said in the first post
the god(the mighty energy) has a task to balance everything.
So, naturally the forces of the demon have the force of angels
to be aware of. The Angels might be from the same race as the
demons who dislike the way the demons take advantage of
other lives (Think Autobot and Deceptacons LOL). It all comes
down now to who are these guys? They may be in this planet
way before humans were here, just invisible to our eyes and
only showing themselves when they want themselves to be
seen or they might be travelling aliens finding new source of
energy. Another theory is that they are from a parallel
dimension who found a way to travel between life plains.

Dimensions, there is a theory that there is more than just one
universe around, what i’m inclined to believe that might be
true. This is because i believe everything will have to come in
pair since everything needs a balance in power. If there is our
dimension then there must be another to balance the
equilibrium. So there might be more than 2 also, there might be
four or eight or a lot more. Well this just means we have to not
only look to space but also total realities. I know I’m taking my
theories too far lol. So i think i better stop now hahaha. So guys
that’s it for my supernatural post the next in line is “games
that need thinking”.

The meaning of supernatural is a power that seems to defy
or go beyond thenatural forces as we know it. This topic has
captivated me for a long long time. I have to say i have
experienced super natural things, I can't explain these things.
Well if i have enough space in this entry i will share a some
of my experiences. Before I start, supernatural is not only
ghosts and demons and stuff. Here a list of things I think goes
under supernatural, things human science can't answer:

- God
- Life (Soul)
- Ghosts
- Angels / Demons
- Aliens
- Phycics and Predictions
- Dimensions

These are the things I can think of now, but I’m sure there are
more. May be all these things are linked together in a science
not yet known to man or just the science we have now is not
even right. This would explain why these things are not
considered natural.



First off, God. One of the most controversial topic in the
history of mankind. his topic is only controversial because
mankind added something called religion into it. Regardless
of which religion there is no doubt that there is a force which
we deem the creator. So, who is this god? Who is our creator?
It’s strange then I think about it, if we’re created by god, who
created god? Well I have a theory about this though. I think
god is no other then an energy source, god has no life(It’s
immortal/ Inexhaustible energy), has no thought but has a way
to balance out equilibrium of the universe. If something goes
to the extreme in one end of the universe, this energy source
will correct it by sending the same about of extreme force to
balance it. We’re all created in the image of the energy like
what the bible says because in every one of us there is an
inexhaustible power source, which is life/soul. Before you go
bashing in my ideas, I’m not asking you to believe what I say
or accept my theories. This is just my speculation.

So now the discussion leads us to Life/Soul. I think the soul
that is somehow transmitted to us when we’re new embryo’s,
a tiny little piece of energy from the creator force. This energy
might be from this world (Earth), or it may be from space, or
from previous souls that had to leave their body due to death.
For some reason we all feel there is more then just our body
in us, don’t we? It feels like you’re more than the physical
presence you have. If this is not true, why do we have burial
ceremonies for millennia’s? This thing we feel, I think is the
soul or our life force that will not extinguish at the end of our
physical presence. So what happens to us when we die, you
may ask. Well some of us may go back to rejoin the great force,
some of us may linger on to find another host, some of us may
still have unfinished business (ghosts) and some of us may be
enslaved by a bigger force of energy that does not allow us to
pass.

Now comes the topic of ghosts. Life as human is a competitive
one, so much so we all have to take care of ourselves, our family
and our loved ones. Some of us adopt great desires, may be an
ambition or great love towards another soul. These feelings make
our soul become unstable until we attain our goals. What happens
when we lose our host body due to death before we can attain our
goals? Our souls remain unstable and in an unstable condition we
are not able to move on. Most of the time the feeling we carry isn’t
enough to destabilize oursoul, but some people can really be
obsessive towards some things and their souls are left behind.
Some of you may say, this is all a big piece of bullshit, there is no
such things as ghosts. Well believe what you want to, I’ve had my
share of experiences to believe otherwise. People who know me
may have heard of my experiences, but I don't feeling like going
into details about them at the moment, There are also souls who
are trapped not because their unstable, but because a stronger force
is holding them back. These are the things I call demons, and the
next part i'll cover on this faul energies and their rivals, the angels.

This post kinda got out of hand and became way too lon for one
post. So, I guess i'll keep the rest for another installment of "The
Supernatural". I hope you had a nice read, not aksing you to belive
them, these are jsut my thoughts and theories.
Peace out till next time guys.

First off, I'm sorry it took such a long time to post this installment
of the blog. I was busy with other things but now i'm back ^^

Although i'm studying IT and seem so into these things, this was
not what i had planned for my life in the younger days. I wanted
to be an aeronautical engineer, but life had other plans for me :)
Aeronautical engineering fell off the pages because of circumstances.
May be i'll get into that part some other time, now I'll concentrate
on IT.

The fascination of computers started for me with computer games.
I used to be one of those young boys who'd exchange games CDs
with friends and go crazy on it. Go to school the next day and brag
about what we have accomplished.

In the early 1990s computers had a few problems but the one
that effected young gamers the most is the lack of hard disk space.
We can only play one game(good strategy game) at a time because
the computer would only have space for one installation at a time.
So, what happens when you want to play another game? We'll
have to uninstall the older game and install the new one. This
process screws with the windows and it causes a lot of problems.

Due to this I had to learn how to fix problems with the computers.
Mostly, what I'd do is format the computer and reinstall the windows.
Later we found out this was also not good for the hard disk, so we
found out other ways to fix these computers. As time passed, we
were pretty decent with troubleshooting computer problems.

So, when my aeronautical engineering plans failed, I picked to do
something I was familiar with, which I thought was the safest path
to take. What I didn't know was, IT isn't repairing computers >.<
The cause I took was more about creating the software in the pc
rather then learning how a computer works physically.

Nevertheless, this proposition still attracted me. When i went to
my first programming class, it was so alien to me. As the course
went by, I loved programming. It's not something easy to do,
especially the more advance parts. Let me put into perspective
how hard it is to do programming, for some of you this may not
be hard at all. Lets say someone gives you a law book and asks
you to know every angle of the law book. Then lets say every
one of the law in there has a unique shape and limitations. Now,
using all the resources there, they ask you to build a building
for a specific reason using the least amount of resources. That's
the only comparison i can think of right now, i hope you guys
understand that, lol.

IT tho is not all about programming, there is database,
networking, data mining, security, games creation and quite a
few more. It's not something easy to do but i hope i'd be able
to sustain my interest in this field and make a career out of it.

Thanks for reading guys :) till next time peace out